You can tell me...stuff

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    HeronStar may not have been the closest to Lilydawn, but even she could see that something was up with her medicine cat. Under other circumstances, she would probably had left it alone, or wait for Lilydawn to approach her. But now, she was the leader, and she was supposed to know what was going on in her clan. That went double when it involved someone as high-ranking as the medicine cat. 
       She's been acting strange ever since...RookStar. 
    It did make sense. What happened to HeronStar's predecessor was spooky. It was not normal for a cat, especially a leader, to just die that suddenly. The nine lives given by StarClan were not supposed o just...dissapear. It shook the whole clan, HeronStar included. But for someone as close to StarClan as Lilydawn, it was probably even more mind-boggling. 
    Taking a breath, the leader stuck her head into LilyDawn's den. 
"Umm...Lilydawn? Can we talk? In the forest, or something?"
    HeronStar tried her best to look reassuring, and like she knew what she was doing. 
Mama

[Mama]

Lilydawn had been rough on herself since Rookstar's death... no, deaths. The she-cat seemed to be more nervous tending to wounds, her pelt messier then usual and fur shedding like snow in a blizzard. But who wouldn't be stressed if your leader suddenly died, and it could have been prevented by your medicine cat?

The thought of stepping down phased her mind a few times, but she wasn't a coward. No... she didn't think she was. She was just tired. Sitting in her den and shakily sorting herbs in the dim light, she had to push them aside quickly before beginning to let out a line of coughs. "Stupid... ngh.." The tabby grumbled, feeling warm under her coat and uncomfortable. Going back to pushing the herbs into their spots messily, she was interrupted by a voice from the entrance.

"H-Heronstar? Are you alright?" Her head whipped around suddenly, fur bristling as she shaking rose to her paws and nearly tumbled over. It took her a moment for it to get through her head that the leader was just asking to go on a walk. Blue eyes scanned Heronstar up and down for any wounds or injuries, before relaxing when there wasn't any. "Alright." Lilydawn replied, giving a twitch of her tail before waiting for her to lead the way.

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    HeronStar awkwardly glanced over the tired-looking medicine cat. She was looking even worse for wear. She almost wondered if she should let Lilydawn stay with her herbs. 
    No...I need to know what it going on. She reassured herself. 
    "Yes...lets...um..go."
    The she-cat quickly turned, wanting to get to the forest as quickly as possible. Out there, she felt as if she could talk clanmate to clanmate. Surely that would be what Lilydawn needed. She just needed a well-meaning clanmate to look out for her. 
    "Lilydawn...I know things are...weird. They have been weird for a while, ever since RookStar...well, you know. But I just...I want you to know...you can talk to me. You can tell me stuff. And I will tell you stuff.."

[Mama]

Following her leader, tumbling and tripping with nearly every step, and each time taking a moment longer to recover and get back on her paws, Lilydawn was glad they took a shorter route instead of a distanced one. Finally, the two paused, and Heronstar started to speak.

"I'm fine." The medicine cat muttered, the tip of her tail twitching with slight aggitation. She didn't enjoy pity, was the only reason Heronstar brought her on this walk was to try and make her feel better? Feel better about letting her leader die? 

"And what do you mean, you know? When the deputies asked me for help and I couldn't get through his head, like how a medicine cat should, and he lost all nine lives at once? It's not like it's a secret in Ivyclan. Everyone was there." Lilydawn pointed out, before giving a small line of coughs. "If that's it, let me know so I can go back to sorting herbs." 

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    HeronStar shook her head. She knew that Lilydawn was nowhere near 'fine'.  
    "If that's it, let me know so I can go back to sorting herbs."
    "No Lilydawn. I don't know. I don't know what happened to RookStar. I don't know how to talk to you. I don't know how  to lead. I don't know what is going on with you, or anyone else!" She took a breath, trying to cool herself down from the rant that was beginning to ensue. "But I do know that a medicine cat and a leader are supposed to talk to one another. And I will never know what is going on unless you talk to me!"