Post by foggy on Jun 6, 2018 21:55:36 GMT
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The scent was fading rapidly, too fast for her liking. It felt like everything that was Featherclaw was gone already, and she had only been dead for a couple of days, her body barely even cold. Not that Hailpaw had gone to see her body, she couldn't bear to see her mother's patched pelt being stained with blood, her once fierce eyes so dull and lifeless. The urge to retch arose suddenly as it now so often did, but the tabby forced it back, not wanting to be seen as weak in front of clanmates who already did. She had to be strong for what she wanted... no, needed to do next.
Sobbing rang repeatedly in her ears, was it her own? Or was it her sister's? She remembered first hearing them, then running out of the elder's den, stinking of mouse-bile. Featherclaw was dead, she was told. The rouges. How ridiculous. There was no way that her mother could have fell to those flea-bitten, pitiful excuses for cats, Featherclaw was a fighter through and through. Every moment that passed, she expected the familiar light yellow eyes to appear, darkened with frustration that her children hadn't dealt with her 'supossed' death as she wanted them to, but then a day passed and there was no sign. Then another day passed.
There were five stages of grief, the first being shock and the second was denial. The third was anger.
The tabby had heard stories of how most felt numb when they lost someone, unable to feel a thing, as if their heart had frozen and grown cold with the absence of what had once brought them warmth, she had always assumed that she would've too, but she didn't. Hailpaw felt hot, a burning heat that just increased in its fervour. It had continued to grow and grow, filling her until she was full of a fiery vehemence that couldn't be contained. Swiftberry was her new mentor, a fiery independent feline, a true role model. The calico had taken her to a battle training session, probably hoping that her angsty apprentice could release some steam, but Hailpaw didn't have steam inside her, she had fire, and it burned.
For a moment, her battle partner had looked just like a rouge, the rouge that she imagined killing her mother when she slept. A half-second passed, and she couldn't control herself, a fierce broken yowl scared the birds in their immediate location and her claws were unsheathed before she knew what she was doing. Luckily, no harm had been done, Hailpaw was thrown to the ground by a supervising warrior before she could do any real damage. She should be thankful, but she felt betrayed that her own clanmates, her mother's clanmates, were preventing her from avenging her death. Swiftberry sent her to camp to cool down, she followed the first part but had no intention of following the second.
Her long fur was in disarray, Hailpaw didn't really clean it regularly anyway but she hadn't touched it since Featherclaw's death had first been announced. Dirt was streaked across it, tufts of fur matting into horrible tangles and burrs and bits of leaf were practically woven into the pelt itself, almost becoming part of it. In fact, she probably looked more like a rouge than a clan cat, ironically.
As soon as she stepped into camp, glaring at anyone who looked towards her with even the slightest semblance of concern or pity, she made a beeline towards her sister, catching sight of her creamy fur in one of the darker corners of the Mothclan camp. Perfect. Hailpaw had had much time to think upon her plan on the way back, inwardly scoffing at how she'd once thought that it was a ridiculous thing to consider, that was before her mind had been clouded with this turbulence. In her current state of mind, it was the perfect course of action. "Stormpaw," her voice was rough and hoarse, a combination of grief and possibly overexertion from her earlier yowl. "We can't just do nothing, she... wouldn't have wanted us to just do nothing." Hailpaw sat down, unsteady and with none of her former sure-footedness. Was she shaking, she couldn't tell. "She is dead, dead in the ground and they who killed her are breathing without a care in world! I can't sit here and let them." Her tone grew in anger and desperation and urgency, finally reaching a fever-pitch, her breath now ragged. She tried to quieten herself but anyone nearby could've easily caught parts of the conversation, especially given that Hailpaw was clearly emotional right now.
( Miss Tactical )