Smokepaw of Mothclan

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Smokepaw Female 9 moons Heterosexual Mothclan Apprentice "I wonder what it would be like to be  a bird with three eyes and two heads..." Appearance A dainty little she-cat, many cats who lay eyes upon this apprentice can tell there isn't much strength in her small frame. indeed, it seems even her own postures resemble a twig, easily blown here and there by the wind. Because even Smokepaw knows she doesn't have an intimidating appearance, she tends to shrink in to a ball-like position, and stay low to the ground in hopes not to get noticed. As she tends to prefer, especially in battle. Though not so impressive in stature, Smokepaw does pride herself in her pelt, and often does what she can to keep her white and dark gray dappled pelt shiny and clean. Though mostly white with occasional small gray spots, she does have a long fully dark gray tail, which she also appreciates, as she feels it adds to her own uniqueness, Her face is soft and feminine, there tends to be no harshness in her gaze...even when she's angry, which makes it hard for others to take her legitimate anger seriously. Generally though, her expression is soft, and unfocused, her odd-colored blue and amber eyes often glazing over, and looking past other cats, as though seeing something in the distance. However, there usually isn't anything there at all. Personality To those who don't know Smokepaw, her personality is hardly existent at at all. She doesn't talk much to those she isn't close to, and constantly seems distracted by whatever other cats are talking about around her. It can take a cat several attempts to actually get Smokepaw to respond to them.As such, she can frustrate warriors and mentors, as sometimes it seems she doesn't listen to even their lectures.  Ever since Smokepaw was a kit, she had a strong imagination and a wonder for life around her, as such she has grown very fascinated by her own perception of the world around her. In her mind, the world is brilliant, and lovely, with fascinating adventures at every turn. She has a hard time accepting reality, or wanting to accept everything that's going on around her. Life as a wild Mothclan cat is hard, deaths happen, but...in Smokepaw's world, everything is just fine and happy. A lot of her thoughts and fantasies are born from denial, and a need to avoid .harsh reality.  To those she lets in and actually speaks to, they can see she's actually a very friendly and light-hearted young she-cat. She loves her friends, and will always want to be there for them when they need her. They would also be able to tell she is very  compassionate cat who has a hard time wanting to hurt other cats, As such, she prefers hunting training over battle training, and on her free time enjoys playing with the kits in the nursery. She has gotten in trouble here and there for trying to take the kits on one of her fantastical adventures without asking permission, however she has gotten better about that.   Lastly, to just about any cat she can be seen as bizarre. When she does speak her thoughts are so strange that sometimes she can sound a bit on the crazy side, especially when offering solutions to problems they might face. For example if a bird flutters  on to a high branch she  might offer "Perhaps if one of us learns to speak bird, we might ask him politely to fly in to our claws..?" or if a cat were angry with her she might respond with " If only I was in your brain, then you couldn't be mad at me because I'm in your brain...and no cat can be mad at their own brain." History A cat with a lonely history, Smokepaw and her brother were the only kits in her mother's last litter that survived. Her mother, was never the most nurturing or loving of she-cats. She wanted kits to strengthen Mothclan. When she had only Smokepaw and her brother, she was greatly disappointed that only one kit was to her standards. Raising the two kits, their mother's attention grew more and more towards her son, whilst essentially ignoring her daughter, aside from the occasional aloof sniff, or cold glance here and there. She even encouraged her son to play with other more capable kits, as she wanted him to grow up around what she considered "good influences to his growth". As a result, Smokekit and her brother were very distant, and in time  he began picking on her with the other kits in hopes that he could gain even more attention from the queens, whether it be good or bad. Though there were some queens who had pity on her, and were kind and supportive of Smokekit, she still ached for the companionship of kits her age. Too shy to make her own friends, Smokekit began to make up her own friends, and play all by herself, the fantasies would continue for moons, even until her present day.  Finally the day came for Smokekit to become an apprentice with her sibling. She was much less enthused than her brother. By the end of her first day of training, Smokepaw was determined to run away from Mothclan, determining that clan life was far too difficult for someone like her. She was sure she would much rather live her own life than constantly have to live how every other cat tells her she has to.. She didn't last long. A gang of rogue cats ended up surrounding her, but as luck would have it, a Mothclan rescue party was not too far behind.They fought off the strange cats valiantly, and escorted her back to the clan camp. Though still uncertain that she belongs in her own clan, Mothpaw is grateful for the rescue, and at least determined to try her life as a clan cat for as long as she can.